He is my white noise!

I can never get use to going to bed without Jon. I seem to just stay up later and later each night while he is gone. Eventually, I know I will get into the patten of going to sleep early and actually falling asleep but that pattern usually occurs a week before Jon is due back! I don't know what it is but I find any reason or excuse to stay up..like writing something in this blog will give me another 5 minutes to stay awake. I miss my white noise maker, not that he makes noise while he sleeps, he is just my comfort!